So I’m a Christian, and my parents want me to go to church tonight. But I go to a gateway church and I hate it. I guess it’s fun and partyish? But it’s too much for me. I asked my mom if we could switch back to our old church (normal/ quiet) but she said NO. She said we can’t switch churches.
Gateway church meaning: loud music that vibrates the ground, strobe lights, fake smoke, and LOTS of fist pumps and jumping. And since it’s the new year they will have, even more strobe lights, even louder music, over 1000 balloons that will fall from the ceiling at 12am, and even more fake smoke, even more music. And some “famous” Christian singers will be there. (they passed out mini flyers at the Christmas service my parents and sister went to so that’s how I know). This is WAY too much for me. Sure it’s fun, but recently I’ve been feeling a little… I don’t know… Depressed. Before I used to love this church. But recently I’ve felt very depressed and all my emotions just left. I don’t get excited anymore, I don’t get happy, the only thing I do feel is sadness and anger. I act excited and happy but inside i don’t feel anything. My parents reason to this? “I don’t go to church often enough” which is true. I didn’t even go to the Christmas service.
And now I’m not going to the new year service. I do feel bad, but I just don’t want to. I’d be happy if I went to a calm church. But apparently my parents will NEVER change churches. So is it my fault that I don’t like going to church? Also recently (around the same time my “depression” showed up) I HATE HATE HATE going to places that might have a lot of people. And my church is HUGE. On a regular basis there is over 500 people on a normal Sunday service. I hate even going to the movies and shopping. How can I go to church!? I used to love going places with people and stuff but recently EVERYTHINGS changed. How can I stop this? And am I bad for not going to church?): thanks. Btw I’m 14 and a girl. And my parents already left
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Am I wrong for not going to church today?
Am I wrong for not going to church today?
So I’m a Christian, and my parents want me to go to church tonight. But I go to a gateway church and I hate it. I guess it’s fun and partyish? But it’s too much for me. I asked my mom if we could switch back to our old church (normal/ quiet) but she said NO. She said we can’t switch churches.
Gateway church meaning: loud music that vibrates the ground, strobe lights, fake smoke, and LOTS of fist pumps and jumping. And since it’s the new year they will have, even more strobe lights, even louder music, over 1000 balloons that will fall from the ceiling at 12am, and even more fake smoke, even more music. And some “famous” Christian singers will be there. (they passed out mini flyers at the Christmas service my parents and sister went to so that’s how I know). This is WAY too much for me. Sure it’s fun, but recently I’ve been feeling a little… I don’t know… Depressed. Before I used to love this church. But recently I’ve felt very depressed and all my emotions just left. I don’t get excited anymore, I don’t get happy, the only thing I do feel is sadness and anger. I act excited and happy but inside i don’t feel anything. My parents reason to this? “I don’t go to church often enough” which is true. I didn’t even go to the Christmas service.
And now I’m not going to the new year service. I do feel bad, but I just don’t want to. I’d be happy if I went to a calm church. But apparently my parents will NEVER change churches. So is it my fault that I don’t like going to church? Also recently (around the same time my “depression” showed up) I HATE HATE HATE going to places that might have a lot of people. And my church is HUGE. On a regular basis there is over 500 people on a normal Sunday service. I hate even going to the movies and shopping. How can I go to church!? I used to love going places with people and stuff but recently EVERYTHINGS changed. How can I stop this? And am I bad for not going to church?): thanks. Btw I’m 14 and a girl. And my parents already left